So here i am again, another night i am up thinking instead of sleeping.. But maybe this will be the last one, (cause that doesn't sound like a suicide note or anything, maybe later i don't know.. anyway) So i'm thinking about this girl, she's beautiful and just amazing, honestly i love her but shes so difficult, and i haven't a clue how she feels about me, as far as love,, we were dating for few months and she started to push me away, i pushed back, i didn't want to lose her, so she showed interest, and i upset her one day, i tried to explain but she wouldn't have it, then she began to lie to me saying she never liked me telling me she loved